CNY 2012

this year my CNY feels like normal, nothing special... just felt that i need a Boyfriend so desperately... cause i am being alone for like 2-3 years already since i come out... i tried to have one, but ended up breaking... so this time i am looking for the lucky guy... that understands me and i understands him... that will call me when i am sick, take me going around, that appreciates me... and i promise that i will love him as long as i can... i dun mind if he is ugly or poor... all i want is him to love me and i will love him with all my heart... wondering when will this happen??? i am so jealous of other people... coz they have 1 person that take good care of them and understands them, know what they need, and be there when they need them... is it that hard to look for true love?? all i ask is a relationship... many people can't accept Gays, Lesbian, Transgender & Bisexual. we became like this also not our choice. sometimes i feel like a gurl that trap inside this boy's body. but the only person that understands me an gives me support is Pn Aznida, she is my school senior teacher, she is like our mother in our school... she treats every student like her own son... and i am safe to tell her anything... include my private life... coz she understands me... i am always alone. Shopping, travelling to KL, walking in the mall, and even in school... there is friends in my school. but those are all FAKE friends..

to those that already had a boyfriend, appreciate them just like they did... once they are gone you can't find any replacement... good boyfriend come once in a while... but its better to stick with the same guy... coz he understands u and u understands him... the important thing in relationship is understanding...

thats all i gotta write for tonite... and i am going to sleep...

GONF XI FA CAI!!!
XING NIEN QUAI LE!!!
LONG NIAN XING DA YUEN!!!